Those we hide from others and those we hide from ourselves are secrets. 
 I have secrets to tell. Well, it will not be secrets anymore right? :) Dare to know it. 
    *Secret turns to Confession. 
 " Confession is always weakness. The grave souls keeps it own secrets and takes its own punishment in silence" --Dorothy Dix

  These things really hurt me ! Grrr! </3

 I can't remember that date when we received it. I don't want to remember it anymore. It still effin hurts. :/ Flashback !!!!

 (Tambayan of 4th year near Alcala bldg ) I was so busy then ....
 Me : Oy. Ano yan?? Write up? Shocks! Binibigay na ! Asan na kaya yung amin? 

     I was really nervous with our grade. The first write up I saw was the write up of Group 8 . Liane's group. Woooah. They got 93! 
I went to my groupmates. I was really kabado. 
Then I saw Alexis. He whispered something in my ear. 

Alexis : Paui , 75 (SEVENTY FIVE) tayo. :(
Me : What the! Seryoso? Asan na baga yung write up natin??? ( Annoyed already) -.-
     I didn't believe in what Alexis told me. His face was serious but the fact that he said that our grade was like that. I was like A-E-I-O-U. GRRR! Then I saw Joan. 

      I asked her. Can I have our write up? PATINGIN.! (My voice was already high. I was like screaming at Joan's face. >.< ). Then. IT WAS TRUE. SEVENTY FIVE. 75. WTF! WTH! My tears were starting to fall. :( Some of my classmates were already asking why am I crying.? My whole day was ruined. It feels that everything we've done in our EFFIN Science Investigatory Project is a Failure. Sleepless nights , wasted time and money weren't enough. We have repeated that write up for so many times , we went through a lot of experiments but we got NOTHING just Failure. SIP was 40% our grade. Im still worried for me and for my groupmates. We've tried our best babies. Is this really our fate? Damn. I can't help but cry. :( Everytime I remember this one, my tears are ready to fall.

   Dear Jazz ,
           We kept this from you. You didn't know this yet. We didn't want to disappoint you that time because you were in the hospital. :(
Im sorry JAZZ. You know how hard we tried but still it's epic. How I wish we'll able to move on with this. 

 Don't force me. I'm not yet decided. 

        I'm scared to tell this to my family. Maybe they won't understand me or maybe they will really make me understand that their decision is really the best for me. 

        Time check : 8 :40 PM. We arrived home at 6 pm. We went to Quezon City. Why?
I took an admission test in New Era University in Quezon City. My grandparents really want me to study there. They're really forcing me. When I saw the school , it was nice and big. They also offered many courses. Their facilities were really organized. My grandpa said that if I study there , I'll be in dorm. My reaction was : Uhh! DORM? How can I really be independent? The dorm was inside the campus. I though that the university was really strict. :/ Before, I want to study in Manila but now I think my mind is currently not sure. :( What if they really want me to study there? They're already decided. :(
I'm not. 

       This time , I Apologize. :)

John Mark Malabayabas Cuario

     You're on of my closest friends. You really make me smile because of your jokes and stories. I really enjoy life when I am with you sis. You're a good comforter, adviser and of course a friend but I really want to apologize for something. :( 
    Sometimes , I feel so guilty every time you saw the both of us together. I think that I make you feel hurt "lalo na kaibigan mo pa nga ako". I feel sad every time you said or mentioned a word connected with "mang-aagaw" even if that's a joke. You know naman what I feel for him , right? And I know what you also feel for him. Sorry if you think I make you jealous. Sorry if the both of us hurt you. :(( I'm just worried about our friendship. I really want this friendship to last. You're a good friend and I don't want you to hate me. :'( SORRY SIS.  LOVEYOU! 

    ' Six degrees"

     I really want to apologize for so many times . I tried to do this personally but this phobia won't let me. "Athazagoraphobia : Fear of being ignored. "  I know you won't listen , you're still mad at me or you don't still understand why that thing happened. Let's go to the point. I'm sorry if I hurt you. Your ghost still hunt me and I still feel that guilt. I really want everything to be alright after this school year ends. We belong to the same group , the ssg and the assembly but every time we'll be together , we still feel that "ilang". I know you're still mad. I can feel it. Sorry Mart. I don't want things to be complicated that's why I did it. And to admit it, I was really hurt with your harsh words.  It effin hurts but still, I want us to be friends but I already accept the fact that it won't happen anymore. Maybe this is my way to confess what I really want to say to you.  Sorry.  

     Angie- Princess-Julie-Shai-Vevz-Euan

        I miss you girls. I really do. Sometimes I feel out of our group because I missed so many stories. I became busy before and I admit I forgot to manage my time with you friends. I really want to apologize for everything. Sorry for being "makulit" . I always want to askif you're mad at me already. Promise, babawi ako friends! :) I want our closeness back! I have so many stories to tell! I love you! I'll always do! I don't have any problems with you girls. You're all sweet , kind and of course pretty! (Yie. :p)  Remember , there will always be a rainbow. There will always be US. FRIENDS  :)  

Do you still rememeber these names Wowa, Mameng , Marina , DUgong, Dugyot, Bendita , Agua? :D   

               ARV is FOREVER LOVE <3
            You became my strength ,  my happiness , my family , my everything. So who the hell will say that it will be alright to lose you guys ? What hurts now is the fact that we're leaving. Few weeks remaining , all I want is all of us  to be happy and free from all of our effin requirements. You contribute a lot in my memory box. All of our laughter and cries are included there! We really deserve to be happy my dear classmates! Let's spend time wisely! THREE WORDS : WHAT THE F*CK! I still want to be with my crazy Arv family in college! :(

                    Jelly-Ace. -.-
     Seems that everything is connected. I feel it. I'm just afraid to ask questions before. What if? Is there something? Well, it's been a long time and finally I found an answer already .  

                       Pig heart! <3
             HI baby! Remember your birthday party , I was like A-E-I-O-U (o_O.) that time. Our classmates were teasing me from the start  "papakilala ka na nan" and I was so nahihiya because the clown thought that I was your "hmm". The moment when I was called "na samahan ka maghati sa cake, sobra nahihiya ako na hindi ako makangiti ng ayos sa picture" and the moment when I met your grandpa my hands were really cold that time and I was really speechless. I just want to admit that "matagal akong nakaget over to what happened." Mixed emotions e. Nahihiya , namumula, I don't know why. -_-. Haha.  I'm really happy when we were together but I'm really afraid to lose you once again. :'( I'm not yet ready to leave you  this time. We both not agree that "ldr"  will work. I really want to ask something but my mouth can't speak up whenever we're together. You always make me kilig, you're the reason why I smile always , I feel so comfortable and glad when I'm with you. You keep on visiting me in my dreams , keep running in my mind. Oh, can you just stay in my heart? ( Wth.. that's why I don't want to include you here, I'm so much arti and corny na)
I'll be strong enough to lift not one but both of US.  

There are three kind of secrets :
1. Something that you hide at the bottom of your heart because you don't want it to be mentioned.
2. Something that you can't say even if you want to. 
3. Something that you hope someone asks about even though you're hiding .
            So what kind of secrets do you have? Well, I've said enough. Thanks for reading this! Please leave a comment. ;) 
Lassie ^-^
2/10/2013 08:14:03 pm

I love your blog! it's soooo cute!xD
Well I enjoyed reading your secrets.(Well you just said that it is not now.. hahahaha) Confessing such secrets can make you feel a lot better. Take care! <3.. Hulaan mo ako kng cnu ate Paui!xD

2/10/2013 09:21:17 pm

Hello Baby.:) Seriously is this the confession blog or the farewell blog for me? *insert tears* I don't want to lose you either...AGAIN. :(

As I always said about those kilig and smiles stuff :)) It's my honor my princess ^^

2/16/2013 11:42:13 pm

Di ka man lang nagshashare sa kin ng mga secrets mo :DD and I thougt na isa ako sa pinagkakatiwalaan mo :)) your blog is really nice two-thumbs up


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