I am filled with affection, sadness and nostalgia. I was all alone in my room and having a picture of Quezon National High School , one of the best public school in Quezon, has molded my mind for four years. I am in the last year of my high school life and still I'm not yet ready to bid my goodbye to it and state my farewell speech.  It is a thought at once happy and sad - happy because I have completed a stage in my education, and sad because I have to part from my Alma Mater which has really shaped my life. But , what's the hardest part in leaving my high school life? Everything especially those persons who became part of my sweet and fruitful journey . 

        "Paalam sa'ting HULING SAYAW", may dulo pala ang Langit kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw sa ating HULING SAYAW" :(

              IV-ARV 2012-2013
           
 
 Bautista
Bayani
Casaljay
 Cruz
Cuario
Esmerna
Julo
Labios
Obciana
Recometa
Reforma
Remojo
Rodriguez
Vejerano
Agito
Albuero
Alday
Andaya
Arcedo
Avengoza
Bautista
Berania
Cabana
Cabangca
Caleja
Casquejo
Cuaresma
De Castro
Diwata
Ella
Gilboy
Gudito
Jimenez
Jumawan
Liu
Magsino
Manuba
Manrique
Mapacpac
Maquinto
Nahil
Nuera
Pantoja
Patal
Sanchez
Zoleta



      
What's the best way of saying farewell to you guys? I have no idea. Cause goodbyes are really painful. I don't want to cry but everytime I remember that we were leaving , my tears automtically fall. Why is it hard to say goodbye? Is it just only because we have so many  memories that we shared? Is it just only because we were afraid that when we go to college , our friendship will be gone? There are many reasons why and every single day is the reason. 
"Nasanay kasi ako na lagi kayong andyan ARV" :(

     "Ito na ang ating huling sandali, di na tayo magkakamali"
 :(

         I can see everyone smiling , even Nikko was staring at Cian's face. (haha). See how our Nanay Ayie did her pose. It's obvious that everyone made the pose "Saludo". (one of our favorite pose in the class) Dati rati , we were just watching seniors having their class graduation picture but time is running so fast, we never thought that we wore this toga and cap already and have our graduation picture. I know what you're feeling that time ,though we really wear our sweet smile for this , there is really sadness inside saying "Inhale, exhale, mamimiss ko talaga ang ARV". So sad to say, we are still not complete in that grad pic because Mami Jue was not there. Don't worry , you are present in our hearts that time. :>

  "Kasi wala ng bukas ,
Sulitin natin ito na ang wakas"


          Ang saya saya pala talaga natin. ;')
We were going to miss each other so much. I want to be back to this place and have some party all night again! Gonna miss this one. The party in th farm house! :(

   Hawakan mo aking kamay 
Bago tayo mag hiwalay 
Lahat lahat ibibigay, lahat lahat 


Paalam sating huling sayaw 
May dulo pala ang langit 
Kaya't sabay tayong bibitaw 
Sa ating huling sayaw 


      I really don't know how to start my farewell speech to my ARV family. Inhale , Exhale. Here we go.

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 Sir Ariel Vinas
-- You are one of a kind! You're great , talented and a good adviser! You always understand us , you make us  feelloved. You're our mom when we were in school, you protected us , guide us and make us happy. We'll really miss the Queen of the Dancefloor and your best dance steps ever! :)
Thankyou Sir Ayie! We love you! I will really miss you. 


CMAC-C :')

    Everytime I am with you guys , I can't avoid myself from laughing too much. You became a big part of ARV. You're so fun to be with. You're so good in many ways not just only in kalokohan. I really enjoy our bonding moments together. 
   Calu : You've been my classmate, my crush , my inspiration for 6 years?! Haha. How can I ever forget you dear? You've been good to me all the time. Thankful enough coz you made me realize that I can be whole again. I learned a lot from you and you have made me the strong and matured person that I am right now. I'll really miss my co-anchor. Even if the we didn't make it the last time we compete,  I still believe that we're the best that time, the TWO of us. If Destiny would wants the two of us to be together, the universe will  make our paths cross again in the future -no matter how impossible it may seem. Maybe by that time it would be “our” time. (PS: There's more , wait :>Hihi ) I'll miss you Baby!
   Maku : I'm so thankful that you are my RP partner and you should be thankful also that I am your partner. You're lucky enough! Chos. :>
I know we're not that good when it comes to grammar, spelling , etc but what's special about us? We're both "MASIPAG". Oops! Is that true? I know you would agree with this! You will always be a good RP partner no matter what! Yiee. By the way, JEC-JEC and you look cute together. <3 Im so kinikilig. :p I'll miss you Tay!
  Andu : Can you imagine? You were once called as Budoy but now you're a hearthrob dude! I'll never forget the times that we'rehaving a serious conversation. and I'm thankful coz you trust me for all the secrets that you've told me. I congratulate you for being not torpe-do anymore! I'll miss you Andu!
  Cedu : You are just somebody na aking nakilala, sombodyyy!!" Hi Cedie! The best conyo boy I met, you will always be remember because of your conyo lines. I'm so glad that we're close since first year and I hope that our closeness will never fade when we go to college! Thank you for providing our name tags since we're freshmen! I'll miss you Cedie!
 Cianu :  You are so childish but you are so sweet. You've become a good friend of mine cause I can always count on you Ciano. Can you please take good care of Ate deth if ever na? HAHAHA. I'll miss you Ciano!

       JaRaNiaCzaneri

   First of all, Im sorry guys. I am the one who made that abbreviation. Haha.Im so crazy that I don't know what will I call to your group because it's you that have been always together.
   Jana : I'll miss those times when we were practicing in your house. Of course, I'll miss you more! :) Thank you because you were so kind enough and understanding. I also remember those times when we were celebrating your birthday in your house, it was yearly. Remember when we were in 3rd year, I am one of the people who always tease you from kuya Jb. Haha. I miss the both of you together! LOL. Take care ate Jana! :) 
  Radz : Hi Mami Radz! I can't remember why I called you Mami but I never regret it. You were one of my Mami in school coz everytime I don't understand a lesson , I always ask you. Haha. I'll never forget your laugh coz it's drivin me crazy. It's like Bwuhahahahaaha! Take care Mami Radz! :)
  Nina : Remember when we were in first year, I thought that you are serous in life but it's a mistake you're crazy faye! Haha. And everytime I spend that craziness with you , I feel happy ! You make jokes with a serious face and that make it best! Take care Faye! :)  
  Czam : We've been friends for 6 years and to be honest with you, your beauty never fade! You're really AWE-CZAM! I'm so thankful that I can share stories and even secretswith you. You're one of the persons who I trust. I always enjoy having a chika with you ! Hello Czamiloo, Czambie , Mark is so lucky to have you ! Take care Czam! :)
  Neriane : "I'm a barbie girl in a barbie world". Remember this? Hahha. Back way when we were in 2nd year.You really look a barbie that time and our performance is really great! I'll miss your smile Mareng Neri! Take care :)

DRC <3

  Liane : Babes!We became very close when you've become part of the Radyo niyugan! You were my companion and story teller that time. ^^ I really miss those times and I will miss it more when we go to college! :( To be honest with you, I have a lianephobia but it is now gone. You're kind , sweet and a great friend! Miggy, oops! Liane! You're the best reporter I ever heard. :> 
Thanks babes!
 Jec-jec and Inay : I will never forget the both of you. You were my prettiest and dakilang kasabay every uwian! Everytime we have our conversation , I experienced fun! We almost shared so much stories , jokes, and kabulastugan in life! Hahah. I love it and I love the both of you! :*
 Incez : I will really miss you ! Grrr! The way you laugh , the way you tease me with taba. You're one of my groupmates in SIP since 3rd year and I know we went through a lot of trials and challenges! Don't worry! Failure will turn into success! Have you moved on with the 75 something? Hahaha. :D. Thanks De Castro!
  Cheber , Ara , Intel : You all look gorgeous especially when you wear your smile. Thankyou because I can lean on your side when I have problems. You three are so creative! I hope you will never forget "Paui" when we go to college. Intel , you're gonna be a teacher or professor in Filipino someday I trust you! Ara, I really see you as a doctor in a future! Gluck! Cheber, I can see the success in your eyes , aim for it!
Thank you girls!
  Madam : I cried last time because you shout in front of me but I ignored that already. I know nman that you're our atake queen and no one will replace you for that. I still love you Madam and I'll miss you !
  Russel : You're the best choreographer ever! You contribute a lot in every achievements our class received. You're really talented, you know how to sing , dance and etc! I'm very proud of you Russel! Thankyou for the unforgettable dance steps and choreo !
  Nikko : I will never ever super duper uber forget you neku! You're unique , cause you're a clown at the same time a stallion! Jk! I'll miss you.  :( I can't imagine my college life without a classmate like you. I always have fun with you! Thanks for the memories Neku! <3
 Johnny : You never fail to make me laugh. You're one of my special friends ! We've been groupmates in many subjects for years. I always want to be with a friend like you Johnny , you really entertain not only me but the whole ARV. "Sorry na nman , kung nagtatampo ka sa akin because of him." I love the both of you remember and he loves you also. We're all friends. I'll miss you Johnny! :>

GRELLE

 G-anne : Your pencil case is a bookstore. Haha. I got that line from you. Thanks for being so generous and kind to me. I'll miss you G-anne!
 Meanne : " You're sexy and I know it". Haha. I will really never forget it, we we're so shocked at the same time amazed because we never expect that you would do that. You get easily insane din pala e like me. Haha. I know the both of us are fond of making waley jokes and we admit it. I'll miss you Meanne!
 Lea :  I really admire this girl for being so talented. Can you share your talents to me? Haha. Many says that you are so strict but that makes you the best, becauseyour accomplishments are really great! I'll miss the way you laugh with your funny gestures. Take care Lea!
 Deth : I'm older than you, right? But I used to call you Ate Deth . :') Why? Cause I treat you like my own sister. We've been seatmates , chatmates since we were in the elementary. CASQUEJO-CABANA friendship will always be the same ha! I hope nothing will change! lOVEYOU!

TRES MARIAS

  Angel : I found out that you are good in dancing last feb. 14. Hahah. We we're so amazed that time, we never thought that Angel would dance! She's a big girl now! Hahha. I do love you Angel! You're always my tanungan ng assignment and I'll miss you. I really do!
 Joycemae : To begin this , I just want to tell you I want your sister for my brother. Hahahah. I thought you are so quiet but when we had our conversations , I really had fun and say "sarap pa lang kakwentuhan nito e". I'm so thankful coz you also shared your own stories with me and you can trust me for those. I'll miss you Joycemae!
 Hilary : I love my seatmate ever! We've been seatmates for 3 years and that leads to our incomparable friendship and closeness. I miss our table in 3RD year, we were seatmates all the time except chem, mapeh , tle. I remember how Ysay and you comfort me whenever I have problems. I'll miss you ba! :( 

                        ABJ3

 Adrian : I always smile when Sir roe calls you Bossing. It becomes traditional na kasi. Thankyou for being a good friend of mine! :') I'll never forget you !
 Jazz : You're the best kaasaran ever! I'll miss you! You're always be my chuchu and I'll always be your master. O'cmon. Please tell me the truth , because you always lie when you say that I'm ugly. You're bad , but still I'm going to miss you! <3 Paui!
 Jueann : All hail! The math wizard in our class! We're so blessed to have one like you! I'll miss you Mami jue! You're one of the people in my high school life that I considered as my mami! I'll miss you!
 Joyce : I used to call you Ate joyce ever since coz you're one of my sisters in school. You're good in giving pieces of advice. You're blogs , essays are such an inspiration! Em gonna miss you Ate Joyce. :>
 B-anne : Dear, you're simple but really awesome! You look pretty all the time that's why you have so many suitors. Hahha, you're a social wizard! Thumbs up! ;) I'm gonna miss the way you pronounced names and other words! Takecare dear!

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  Angie : I will always be your mom and you will always be my daughter. Don't afraid to tell what you feel. We're always ready to help you Anj, we don't want to see you cry anymore baby! I'll miss you! :') ONE<3
 Mother : Thank you for being there when I always ask help and someone to lean on. You will always be beautiful in our eyes! :') Yieeee. Remember nga pala , we can be both Brgy. Captain in the future , haha. See you soon Mother! Apir! :)
 Julie : I used to call you Ate Julie! I know you since we were in Grade 1. You don't remember me that time coz I tranferred after a week. Sayang , I want to spend more crazy moments with you ! :) You're one of a kind ate Jam! You're as sweet as strawberry Jam but as sour as pineapple when you get mad. 
 Shaina : Manager! Don't you dare to forget our talent branch ha. I'll miss you. I'll miss the way you do your craz stuffs! Ayyt! Ang buhay ayyyy :"Tahimik" at tayo ayyyy "Maganda". Hihi! Always remember that shai!
 Vivien : I always feel comfortable every time I am with you Vevz. :') You're such a great friend of mine. You're so hyper and that makes you unique! We love you Bunso! We're so blessed to have a friend that is super galing , super ganda! Ohaaa! Don't forget Paui ha!
 Euan : Lucky to have you as my friend! You are so pretty as you always say! Haha. Thanks for being there for me. You know I can trust you. You've always been my idol! I miss those times when we were in the room of Geometry. Haha. The scene that happened in the first day. We will never forget Mam Bunales. Seriously! :) Euanae rocks!

My newest but coolest classmates

 Joan : It's good to be your classmate again. I know we're not that close  when we were in second year but atleast ngayon we've been groupmates in SIP so kahit konti oras we have that time together. Joan! Kwento ka nman! Gonna mis ya!
 Eman : I'm happy na nakilala ko tlga ikaw Eman! I thought you were so serious in studies when we were in 3rd year. You have a lot of crazy stuff pala! You're an easy go lucky person but still good! :) Go eman! Tc! Aim high!
 Alexis : People change and you change. I'm so happy for that. I am so irritated to you before coz you made me cry, you hurt me with your harsh words but now I think you've realized now you're mistakes. Don't worry. Alam ko bumabawi ka nman, and everyone is given a chance na magbago kaya go lang! Aja alexis!

                     COCO FAMILY
- Boss nIca    - Joshua      - Seamus
- Gian           - Bianca      - Keihle
- Camille        - Gellian       - Carlo P.
- Trisha         - Justine     - Kristine
 -My classmates who are part of this


      I'll miss you. Thanks for the memories!

                      SSG Family
- Ecca        - Rombert  -Wendy   - Martin
- Patrick      - Jay        -Andrea  - Toby
- Kaeremon   - Laurence  - Roxanne  - Micah
- All my co-officers that are not mentioned

      I'll never forget you guys! Gonna miss you all! 

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         PAUVEN FEVER! :P
It took lots of time and patience until I have reached moment that I’ve felt I can wholeheartedly say that I can open my heart once again. But looks like Universe is playing a game on me, as I was closing the “you and me” chapter of my book all of a sudden by a twist of faith our paths crossed again. I super duper uber hate you for breaking my heart. I super duper cry when we let each other go. I just hate that everyone is saying na "simula nung nwala ka, wala na konG sineryoso guy". I hate you for that! Then you're leaving me again! :( I hate you!


 Joke lg baby! :'> HAHAHA. HAAAY.
 Im gonna miss you Carlo Olyven Hermita Bayani so much! :'( I can't imagine myself smiling without you by my side. (Sorry kung emo na but I can't control it.) You've been my hero since we were in grade Iv. You've been saving me from any pain and sadness. I'm so stupid when I let you go before. :( I thought that you can no longer be my prince and I can no longer be your princess. "Sobrang nasaktan ako that time, and It was really hard to move on. You were my first love.". But past is past. I actually move on with that pain but not with my feelings for you. :') It's funny how destiny works, it's funny how we become close again. I'm happy that I can tell you what I'm feeling right now. I know words aren't enough but I'll try my best to prove it. Sobrang naappreciate ko yung effort mo last time and every time na binubuo ko yung puzzle , I am crying. Maybe you're right. You're my missing piece and I want you to be with me to make me complete. ILOVEYOU ! I'LL REALLY MISS YOU! :'(


 "You will always occupy a special place in my heart. I am still holding on to the thought that someday we will be together. I can still picture out my future with all of you  But at the moment I need to move away from you before  the new world is now started to build. For now, I don'tknow if I’ll be moving on to the next chapter of my book. Let us have our fair chance of a happy ending. A sweet goodbye to all of you! Farewell! :(

 This is Paui! Signing off! :)

 
Those we hide from others and those we hide from ourselves are secrets. 
 I have secrets to tell. Well, it will not be secrets anymore right? :) Dare to know it. 
    *Secret turns to Confession. 
 " Confession is always weakness. The grave souls keeps it own secrets and takes its own punishment in silence" --Dorothy Dix

  These things really hurt me ! Grrr! </3

 SEVENTY- FIVE :(
 I can't remember that date when we received it. I don't want to remember it anymore. It still effin hurts. :/ Flashback !!!!

 (Tambayan of 4th year near Alcala bldg ) I was so busy then ....
 Me : Oy. Ano yan?? Write up? Shocks! Binibigay na ! Asan na kaya yung amin? 

     I was really nervous with our grade. The first write up I saw was the write up of Group 8 . Liane's group. Woooah. They got 93! 
I went to my groupmates. I was really kabado. 
Then I saw Alexis. He whispered something in my ear. 

Alexis : Paui , 75 (SEVENTY FIVE) tayo. :(
Me : What the! Seryoso? Asan na baga yung write up natin??? ( Annoyed already) -.-
    
     I didn't believe in what Alexis told me. His face was serious but the fact that he said that our grade was like that. I was like A-E-I-O-U. GRRR! Then I saw Joan. 

      I asked her. Can I have our write up? PATINGIN.! (My voice was already high. I was like screaming at Joan's face. >.< ). Then. IT WAS TRUE. SEVENTY FIVE. 75. WTF! WTH! My tears were starting to fall. :( Some of my classmates were already asking why am I crying.? My whole day was ruined. It feels that everything we've done in our EFFIN Science Investigatory Project is a Failure. Sleepless nights , wasted time and money weren't enough. We have repeated that write up for so many times , we went through a lot of experiments but we got NOTHING just Failure. SIP was 40% our grade. Im still worried for me and for my groupmates. We've tried our best babies. Is this really our fate? Damn. I can't help but cry. :( Everytime I remember this one, my tears are ready to fall.

   Dear Jazz ,
           We kept this from you. You didn't know this yet. We didn't want to disappoint you that time because you were in the hospital. :(
Im sorry JAZZ. You know how hard we tried but still it's epic. How I wish we'll able to move on with this. 

 Don't force me. I'm not yet decided. 

        I'm scared to tell this to my family. Maybe they won't understand me or maybe they will really make me understand that their decision is really the best for me. 

        Time check : 8 :40 PM. We arrived home at 6 pm. We went to Quezon City. Why?
I took an admission test in New Era University in Quezon City. My grandparents really want me to study there. They're really forcing me. When I saw the school , it was nice and big. They also offered many courses. Their facilities were really organized. My grandpa said that if I study there , I'll be in dorm. My reaction was : Uhh! DORM? How can I really be independent? The dorm was inside the campus. I though that the university was really strict. :/ Before, I want to study in Manila but now I think my mind is currently not sure. :( What if they really want me to study there? They're already decided. :(
I'm not. 

       This time , I Apologize. :)

John Mark Malabayabas Cuario

     You're on of my closest friends. You really make me smile because of your jokes and stories. I really enjoy life when I am with you sis. You're a good comforter, adviser and of course a friend but I really want to apologize for something. :( 
    Sometimes , I feel so guilty every time you saw the both of us together. I think that I make you feel hurt "lalo na kaibigan mo pa nga ako". I feel sad every time you said or mentioned a word connected with "mang-aagaw" even if that's a joke. You know naman what I feel for him , right? And I know what you also feel for him. Sorry if you think I make you jealous. Sorry if the both of us hurt you. :(( I'm just worried about our friendship. I really want this friendship to last. You're a good friend and I don't want you to hate me. :'( SORRY SIS.  LOVEYOU! 

    ' Six degrees"

     I really want to apologize for so many times . I tried to do this personally but this phobia won't let me. "Athazagoraphobia : Fear of being ignored. "  I know you won't listen , you're still mad at me or you don't still understand why that thing happened. Let's go to the point. I'm sorry if I hurt you. Your ghost still hunt me and I still feel that guilt. I really want everything to be alright after this school year ends. We belong to the same group , the ssg and the assembly but every time we'll be together , we still feel that "ilang". I know you're still mad. I can feel it. Sorry Mart. I don't want things to be complicated that's why I did it. And to admit it, I was really hurt with your harsh words.  It effin hurts but still, I want us to be friends but I already accept the fact that it won't happen anymore. Maybe this is my way to confess what I really want to say to you.  Sorry.  

     Angie- Princess-Julie-Shai-Vevz-Euan

        I miss you girls. I really do. Sometimes I feel out of our group because I missed so many stories. I became busy before and I admit I forgot to manage my time with you friends. I really want to apologize for everything. Sorry for being "makulit" . I always want to askif you're mad at me already. Promise, babawi ako friends! :) I want our closeness back! I have so many stories to tell! I love you! I'll always do! I don't have any problems with you girls. You're all sweet , kind and of course pretty! (Yie. :p)  Remember , there will always be a rainbow. There will always be US. FRIENDS  :)  

Do you still rememeber these names Wowa, Mameng , Marina , DUgong, Dugyot, Bendita , Agua? :D   

               ARV is FOREVER LOVE <3
            You became my strength ,  my happiness , my family , my everything. So who the hell will say that it will be alright to lose you guys ? What hurts now is the fact that we're leaving. Few weeks remaining , all I want is all of us  to be happy and free from all of our effin requirements. You contribute a lot in my memory box. All of our laughter and cries are included there! We really deserve to be happy my dear classmates! Let's spend time wisely! THREE WORDS : WHAT THE F*CK! I still want to be with my crazy Arv family in college! :(

                    Jelly-Ace. -.-
     Seems that everything is connected. I feel it. I'm just afraid to ask questions before. What if? Is there something? Well, it's been a long time and finally I found an answer already .  

                       Pig heart! <3
             HI baby! Remember your birthday party , I was like A-E-I-O-U (o_O.) that time. Our classmates were teasing me from the start  "papakilala ka na nan" and I was so nahihiya because the clown thought that I was your "hmm". The moment when I was called "na samahan ka maghati sa cake, sobra nahihiya ako na hindi ako makangiti ng ayos sa picture" and the moment when I met your grandpa my hands were really cold that time and I was really speechless. I just want to admit that "matagal akong nakaget over to what happened." Mixed emotions e. Nahihiya , namumula, I don't know why. -_-. Haha.  I'm really happy when we were together but I'm really afraid to lose you once again. :'( I'm not yet ready to leave you  this time. We both not agree that "ldr"  will work. I really want to ask something but my mouth can't speak up whenever we're together. You always make me kilig, you're the reason why I smile always , I feel so comfortable and glad when I'm with you. You keep on visiting me in my dreams , keep running in my mind. Oh, can you just stay in my heart? ( Wth.. that's why I don't want to include you here, I'm so much arti and corny na)
I'll be strong enough to lift not one but both of US.  

There are three kind of secrets :
1. Something that you hide at the bottom of your heart because you don't want it to be mentioned.
2. Something that you can't say even if you want to. 
3. Something that you hope someone asks about even though you're hiding .
            So what kind of secrets do you have? Well, I've said enough. Thanks for reading this! Please leave a comment. ;) 
 

  TWO- ZERO-ONE- TWO

  2012 is about to end. January is starting off with a new year. A new year with new beginning and new hopes for all of us. A new year hoping to be successful and hoping there are more blessings that will come in to our life. This is a chance of a lifetime and a chance to start all over again. But for now I just want to go back to all the best and worst moments in my life this 2012. I guess I can share it with you. :)) Let's start recounting. 

Best Moments in 2012   

 A Night to Remember: JS PROM 2012
 2-10-12 . It was our JS Prom. One of the best moments I experienced in my life. This was our first time yet it was really memorable. For me that time, we all look like a real princesses and princes' wearing our lovely and nice gowns and suits. It was also our first time to perform the cotillion and promenade. We have our own first dance and last dance. Js Prom moments will always be treasure and I hope the next prom will not be "bitin"for us. ^^
       SAGA for the WIN.  :'> Meeting De Avance
    Meeting De Avance in our school is yearly. It was 23rd of February when we had our Meeting De Avance. This was actually my 2nd time to join the Meeting De Avance , my last time was when I am in first year and I was running for 2nd representative before. Unfortunately, I didn't win. Joining the, Meeting De Avance was really memorable because this is one of the biggest event in school and I'm happy coz I experienced this and I got a chance to be close with my SAGA family. (Students Alliance for Good Governance and Advocacies) We built a good friendship and survived from our campaign. I will never forget them. They will always be my Saga party who taught me that I can be a good leader and I can be responsible.
    
  February 14 ( Valentines Day)
 You know him. Yes. Maybe I don't need to introduce him to you. Let's just go to the story of US? It was valentine's day. A very special day for all of us. An Unexpected surprise day for me. She just knelt to the ground and asked me "Will you be my girl"? That's all. I said Yes.  I received chocolates . flowers and a letter from him. ^^ We had a lot of arguments  and misunderstandings. Yea. Our relationship ended. That's Life. We have to let go, accept things and move on. :)) I hope we can be friends after all. :(
P.S : Hoping for your happiness and not for bitterness. K??
 Summer 2012 :)
      One of the coolest summer I ever had. I met new friends. I experienced to act on a stage play again and I'm proud that I had the cahnce to be a part of our INC Cinema.We have rehearsed more than a month. We practiced and practiced and prepared for everything. We had our performance in the theatre of ISBB and our parents were very proud of us after watching our performance. 
   JUNE 2012. THE BEST. 
   "Once a Viper , Always a Viper". :)) What's the best of my 2012? It's the fact that I am a Viper. I belong to a loving and incomparable family and that is my ARV family. I met a family who inspired me a lot and became one of my strengths and inspirations in life. They really made my day complete with every moments we shared  every success we made and every problems we solved. Though challenges and trials came to us , we're always one We're always a family. I am lucky to have you guys. Thankful enough that I have you as my friends and companions. Thanks for all the memories this 2012! :') 
           Sweet Sixteen. ;)
          August 25. It's my day. It's my birthday and I was really happy that day.There were many persons who greeted me even if I don't know them yet. I appreciated their texts ,their post on my fb wall and of course greeting  me personally. But the special thing in my birthday was I celebrated it with my Arv family the whole day because my Birthday was also a big day for us coz it's our Division Science Fair and we're going to compete for our S.I.P . We had a lot of pictures and our 20 pesos for lunch is really "sulit" coz it's KFC! Yummmy! 
    Boom-Chiki-Chiki-Chiki-Boom-Boom-Boom
          Look at our faces? Happy right? Absolutely Yes because that time was our cantata. Christmas cantata is really unforgettable for us because we got a lot of prizes. We experienced a lot of trials in our practices but still we did a great job. We won the classroom , curricular, and especially in the battle of the champions. I'm very proud of my classmates! We've tried our best just to make the judges smile and proud. :)) Thumbs up! 
Partyyyyyyy! :')
         Videoke all night long! Super Green minded games! Wacky pictures! Delicious and yummy foods! I want more! I want more overnight people! This christmas party was the best party ever in 2012. I never thought we would enjoy it the whole day and the whole night. We had a lot of fun even if we're busy doing our rp assignments then. We had our sweetest smiles every time the camera is in front of us. Thanks for our Mommy? Haha. Sir Ayie for letting us visit his farm house and thanks also to Father Ella who went there and joined us in our party. I will never forget this day.               12-20-12   .12-21-12 . Lez do this one more time guys! 
Take time to Realize. =)
        How should I start with this? Hmm. 
  I have to tell you something. I have to admit it. I can't keep this for a long time. It's just that a guy from my past will always be a guy of my present. He will always be a "hero" for me. He will always be Chubby , Funny and Friendly. He is still COHB who carried my heavy and big bag when I was in Grade four. He was a part of my 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011 , 2012.    " Dear you, would you mind to be a part of my forever?" Oops! >.< Hahaa. ( Bat nssbi ko to?!) Maybe I have realized something , I still like him.  I still . :))
      We're crazy and I know it. XD =>

   I have my best moments but I also have my worst. 
“The more sand that has escaped from the hourglass of our life, the clearer we should see through it.” 
― Jean-Paul Sartre

     Hi Alexis! Peace be with you. :))
    We were all busy when I cried. We were doing our S.I.P when one of my groupmates and I had an argument. We didn't understand each other side. All I want is our SIP to work out. All I did that day is cry because he is my classmate and I don't want to get mad of me. But we survived , we did our S.I.P properly even if the results were not that successful and one more thing ,Alexis and I are close again.

#sARVivors
   Wow. This day was a tragic. :) I got wounds. I was hurt and not only me but also some of my classmates. We thought planting mangrove is fun  but it made consequences, we all got tired and got blood. :/ Thankful enough coz my classmates were there to help us and at this moment our bonding became tighter and we survived this project. Woo. Until now we have our scars. It is a remembrance saying that planting bakawan is not easy. XD
       It's a LESSON. We should prepared for that. 
    Math Jingle Elimination. It was October when we had this elimination and the reason why I include this as my worst moment of 2012 is not becausw we lost and it is because we didn't prepare for this at all. We have practiced the whole song and steps hours before the elimination . Expectation hurts , we knew it , we accepted the fact that this jingle is not for us anymore unlike last year. We're just happy to know that even though our performance was so epic, people still cheer us. :>
     THE SO CALLED "ISSUE"
     I really don't know how this started but I'm happy to know , this issue is now forgotten and everything is alright now. I don't have any idea on this issue until I opened my fb account and saw different posts from different persons that's why I knew that there is something happening between us , the Esep Seniors. One time we had our open forum , everyone thought that this could be a way for us to have peace again. We didn't expect that this open forum made the issue bigger. >.< Let's just forgive and forget! :)) Loveyah Esep Seniors!
     Oops! We're Disqualified! :))
    It could be a great day for us until everything was ruined? XD. By that time , we're all excited to perform , we're all happyto know that we already  belong to Category C unlike before we're in Category D. At the same time, we're all nervous,we're not choirlike them , we're just a simple performers who want to make the audience smile in our performance. We've tried our best but still we're disqualified. We're more than 30. :/  And the winner is still TALIPAN! Those MANTLE people! :> How are you guys? Haha. >.< I heard some of them saying that we looked like Sailor moon! 'Atleast Sailor moon is cute ! Ask yourself if mantle looks good! Thaankyou!

 THE BEST :>

 THE WORST :<

    These  moments are really hard to forget. These memories will always be cherish and treasured. Best moments made us smile ,Worst moments made us strong. Both moments taught us lessons in life. 2012 is really a year to remember! I just hope that 2013 will be good to each of us. 2012 will always be remembered especially to those person who really made this year special. I'm running out of words to describe how happy I am this year. :))
Words aren't enough to thank all the person who became part of my 2012. Goodluck to everyone of us! Godbless! :*
   After every chapter in my life I look aback and see how much I have grown in love , friendship and happiness.  Again, Thank you! 
 
       Everyone has to deal with competition in one way or another. Finding a right partner, passing  entrance examinations in college, earning college scholarships, participating in contests: all of these involve competition and we have to accept the fact that all of us have the possibility to win or to lose.  There is no escape with these possibilities , we just have to embrace them and understand them. My point in doing this blog is to admit that "Losing is a part of our life" .  I have to move on with this issue and just accept what has been decided.
    It happened last time. December 6 , 2012. ;)
 That day was the Division Cantata 2012 and we are all excited to go back to Talipan National High School in Pagbilao where last division cantata was held there too. Good thing about us, (ARV)  is we already belong in Category C and we are with IV-CCR (401) and they will compete in Category B. I'm happy because all of us , Arv will going to perform on the stage unlike before that some of us including me we're just watching and yelling our classmates just because the mechanics said that the participants will only be 25. We all woke up early and ready ourselves with our costumes. I'm happy to see our Mapeh teacher , Mrs. Pereha that is so caring and supportive that she was the one to look for what we're going to ride and she was the one to pay our fair. Of course , I also want to mention our loving Adviser, Sir Ayie because he decided to go with us just to cheer us and watch our performance and thank all the mapeh teachers that supported us. We were also wearing our varsity jacket coz we don't like to reveal our costumes yet. When we arrived, we saw different colorful costumes from different schools. They we're prepared and ready to compete. The girls have their make ups unlike us. :) They are wearing hats , neckties and other stuff. We stayed in our so "masikip" room. Arv and Ccr are just in only one room and we're more than 60 students so it was really hot inside the room. We got bored because we're about to perform in the afternoon and there we're a lot of participants. We enjoyed the first part of the program and we supported Ccr. Their performance was still great even though they're not choir like their "kalaban". We have our free lunch and that is "adobong langis" . Let's move on.
Beforewe performed , Mrs. Alcantara said that "Mga anak pag ba binawasan kayo malaking kawalan?" We were actually shocked to what Ma'am said and asked her Whyyyy? Because you're more than 30, if you perform more than 30 then you are disqualified. :( Whow that was a damn announcement. We thought everything was right, we still performed and smile even though the audience were already critizing us. "Bat an dami nila? We don't want to make ourself down , we tried our best. We performed with smiles on our faces and after our performance, some our clappin their hands but some have different looks on their faces. Ohh! They're insecures! >.< The said we looked like sailor moon in our costumes! Reallly? We're cute right! We're unique! We want to tell everybody there that we're not choir, we're just a simple 4th year student who wanted to perform and bring an honor to our beloved school. :/
     
       The most awaited part the awarding? Ohh. :( We already knew it. We're Disqualified! Can we just say that we are Overqualified because we we're too many and the participants are over.? If only we can admit it to ourselves, if only we knew it right from the start. Yaaah. "AMPALAYER, AMPALAYER." Bitter to judges, audience , everyone their in talipan especially the winners. Not because they win, it's because they were really proud of themselves not thinking that they were wearing a mantle ! :) That was the reason why we're bitter in mantle! We never expect that! We're not bitter just because we lost, it's because it's not fair. We didn't know that the mechanics were there. But one thing about is we we're glad because we were able to performed and we tried our best just to make them proud of us. 

       A bitter sorrow. A bitter chill A. bitter hatred and a bitter lesson. The difference between the Loser and the Winner in each such Game is that the Loser accepts that the proper ending to the Game, like a crescendo in music, is for oneself to lose. The Loser expects this all the time, and is indeed very surprised should he/she win. :/

 
   I don't remember when this friendship started but one thing I'm sure is this friendship will never have an ending. To Infinity and Beyond! Here we go!
Meet my super FRIENDS! 1-2-3-4-5-6-7! You might call us crazy , weird , stupid and dumb but we are really enjoying the friendship we have right now .  And now this blog is dedicated to them and I want to share it to everyone.Let's start counting ! :))
 ONE : Angelica "ANJ" Delacruz Pantoja ( The Crying Baby)
 I can see her smile again. Im proud of her! She was strong enough for all of this. She obeyed our advice although it was hard for her. I love youuuuu Anj! We will always be here for you. :* Remember this "HA? BAKIT? BAKIT ANO YUN" . ? The way you dance this was LOL! I'll miss your waley jokes just like mine and the way you "irit"is so different! Unique! Hahaha. Thankyou for being You as my friend. :)
  She's friendly.She's jolly but she is a crying babyy! Truuuee! :) . A warm of applause to number ONE. I am close to her since we were in 1st year. She was friendly enough that everyone can be her friend.  She was nice and thoughtful and I treat her as my daughter  and I am her mom.  Haha.:D. Anj is so good to be true. We spent a lot of memorable moments together and I've learned a lot from her. Wait. Maybe you're asking why I call her "crying baby" right? I will tell you something about that. She is afraid of dogs, ghosts but most of all heartache. She was hurt once by someone he treated special and after that, she changed. Whenever I see her in pain, I want to talk to her. If only I can replace that sadness , I would. I missed her sweet smiles, her jokes and the way she laugh. But now  she's back! 
 TWO : Princess "Mother" Mariz Ella (Pinkahollliiic Girl)
 
But suddenly we believe that her decision was changed especially when he met that person. Let's name him . "RYAN". Yieee. ;). We noticed that there's a lot  of changes  when Ryan and her became close. Mother starts to bloom. Haha. It's obvious naman na she's inspired and we're happy for her. Ryan is so caring and thoughful. We like Ryan for our friend. He treated Mother as her own princess. (Swweeeet) ! We just hope that they're puppy love story will someday became Dog?Joke! It's a perfect puppy love story at all! I love you Mother! :*We won't let Ryan or even other person to hurt you. We will always be there for you. <3 
 She's gorgeous.  She's pretty. She's kind (Not sure. Joke.?!) But the simple way to describe her , she loves PINK. Seriously! I never thought that she will be one of my closest friends. At first , I thought she was so quiet and so serious in life. But then I was wrong. She's in! She's also friendly.  Did you know that when we were in 1st ,2nd  &3rd year,  her stuff was almost pink! O'cmon! She's so girly! :> Let's move on to her character traits. She's mataray in some other way but she's also kind the other way around. ! She is so serious when it comes to grades! She's afraid of failing. I remember that everytime she got low scores inour quizzes, assignments, etc, she will cry ! She loves high grades so much. Oops! One thing I want to share about my friend Princess is she want to be a nun someday. My classmates always ask her if she's serious and she always answer us "Yes". 
 THREE : Julie "JAM" Ann Manuba (The Hyper)
 She has a perfect love story right now with her partner Kuya Darn! The both of them really care for each other. They made mistakes but the end of the day ,they will be still together. They're one of the couples or love teams that I idolized right now. Everything seems to be perfect! We want Kuya Darn for her. They're both kind. They really attract! How I wish that their story would last. I do love Ate Jam! :') She's crazyy but I really enjoy her company. Im happy because I am one of her friends and she knew I am also crazyyyyy. LOL
She's one of a kind! She's cool. She's one of my dearest "Ate" in school. She's our good and attractive boss! :) Meet number THREE. She's absolutely crazzzyyy! Haha. We were classmates since elementary. I know Ate Julie a lot compare to my other classmates right now. She's been a friend of mine ever since! Ate Jam is someone you can lean on when you have problems. She's always ready to help! (Naks.!) She is responsible for every task. She makes sure everything is fine and good. She's not serious! C'mon! She's one of the crazzzziiieest person I met! She's hyper! She always  give her best to something. Some people say "Ate Jam is mataray". Definitely NOT! Don't make her mad or else.!! WorldWar3! Just kidding! My ate Jam is as sweet as STRAWBERRY JAM" especially to her someone special. 
 FOUR : Shaina "Shaii" Mae Diwata ( My manager)
She's noisssy! (Haha!) But one thing I noticed about her is she is afraid of performing or speaking in public or in front of many people. The first time I heard her sing was the talent performance in Values when we we're in third year. My manager knows how to sing but according to her , she's SHY? Or SHAII?  (Lol :> ) I can't rememeber any dull moments we spent with her. And now I want to dedicate this lyrics of the song to her :
  'Cause it's you and me
And all of the people people with NATH- ing to do. NATH- ing to prove. :P


  - - I know you're inspired right now because of someone! Happy for you manager! Lovelots! :*

    If you don't know her , maybe you'll think she's too quiet. If you're not close to her maybe you'll think she's 
"mahinhin". Ooops! I'll prove you wrong. My manager is different! She's great! She's funny , noisy and friendly ! Hi Four! =)
    She became my classmate when I was in Grade 2 in SPS ( St. Philomena School), we're both transferees at that time so we are not that close yet. My impression to her that time was she is kind and cheerful. After a year , we separated ways because both of us transferred in other school. I didn't expect that we will become classmates again when we entered highschool. I was happy because I'll be able to know her more. I was right in my fist impression to her. She's really kind and cheerful. She's funny in many ways. She has a lot of jokes and words that make us laugh even if it's nonsense. I don't remember how we became close but Im happy coz we are already close and she's now one of my closest friends. 
  FIVE : Vivien "Vevz" Joy Berania             (The Gifted One)
 She's crazzzzzzyyy! ;) I rememeber her former name in Fb -> Vivien Baliw! She's not formally crazy! She is just a jolly person who laughs out loud and who is full of energy all the time! I always enjoy her company. Seriously! She's so caring and lovable! One more thing is we called her bunso. She's the youngest among the 1234567. :) That's why we are always ready to help her to her problems and protect her from any harm. We believe that she will make her goal this year ! ;) We trust in you Vevz! We love you so much! Swear. <3 :* 
 She's amazing! She's brilliant! Hello number Five!
First impression last? I don't believe that. Let me tell you this. First day of school when we were in 1st year, I thought a girl is so "maarte" and "masungit". She was wearing a sleeveless and a mini skirt  . I don't know her yet so I don't have to judge. But then I was wrong. What I'm thinking before was a mistake! Vevs is so kind , she's sweet and caring. Everyone can be proud of when he/she became a friend of Vivien! She's so smart, an intelligent one! She was so gifted for her knowledge. We we're very proud of her because even if she didn't review a lesson, she can still answer questions. She's so gallliiiing especially to science! She understand things very well. She's talented.  It's funny coz Vevz is not that kind of person who is serious in life.
 Can I tell you something??
    SIX : Pauline "Paui" Grace Casquejo
          ( Undefined??) XD
    I love myself. I just want everyone to accept me for who I am. :)) I'll try to be good all the time. :> Crossed fingers! Well, I'm running out of words. I love my friends so much!  I don't have a perfect love story right now and my heart always end up to be broken and good thing about is  my friends are always there for me. I'll spend the last 4 months with them with full of laughter and happiness! I love you guys! :*
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one.'"
- :)


  I don't know how to start with this coz I don't like to describe myself. Haha. Well, I'll describe myself according to their opinions. They said I'm cheerful , friendly , easy-go lucky, insane but kind! :> I'm kinda bitchy sometimes especially to those bitches too. I'm patient and not short tempered. I'm thoughtful and caring too especially to my family, classmates and friends! I can say that everyone can trust me. Im a good friend! :) I'm also a good enemy if you want!I'm a girl who loves to smile even there's pain but I'm not good in pretending. People easily know when I'm  unhappy and mad. I hate expectations at the same time coz it hurt me a lot. Just like what my grandparents expectation, they want me to be on top 15  in graduation , they're expecting me to pass all the scholarship exams that they want for me. ;( I feel stressed! Hmm , nevermind! Let's go back.
 SEVEN : Euan Rae "Euanae" Noelle Jimenez      ( The talented one  )
 You'll enjoy her company. She's funny. She always want to hear a story if she's bored. "Oyy. Magkwento ka nga." -- A line from her . XD
  She loves us! And we love her more! :)) We'll always support her for something that makes her happy. 


 Hi Euanae! Good EVENING! In tagalog "Magandang Gabbbyy"? :> lovelots!




 She's one of the greatest singer I heard! She's one of the coolest person I've met! She rocks! Let me introduce to you, number SEVEN. :)
Since 1st year, I already want to be a friend of her. She looks kind and awesome. She's good in english and most of all, she's talented! She is good in dancing especially when it comes to singing! She's so good! She looks like Haley of Paramore. She's simply amazing! She sings sweetly and everybody gets amazed when she is singing. By the way, Euanae is my idol! :) 
She's frank. If she don't like someone or something, she'll admit it. She gets irritated when someone touches her hair. If she's not close to you , you'll think she's "mataray" because of her "killer stare". Haha. She's kind! Super! She's understanding.
  Memories! Moments! 
     "The best ship in this world? :) It's FRIENDship.
  For me we must make every moment perfect and happy. We must show how friends are important to us. Just like the colors of the Rainbow, we will never change. We'll LIVE. We'll LOVE. We'll LAUGH.
 

 tHIS WAS AWESOME , MOMENTOUS  AND MEMORABLE ! :) 

   This is my first and last fieldtrip in highschool. And I can say that this field trip worth it. !  .  I think this is quite an unbeatable once-in-a-lifetime experience.!  We have a lot of experiences that we will never forget.!  Our bonding and laughter seems so incomparable! 

      September 29 , 2012. Krrrriiiiing ! My phone was vibrating. Im so sleepy that time that's why I didn't notice that it was my alarm. "Ohh! Hell. Fieldtrip nga pla ngayon. I forgot! Haha. Phew!" I was very stupid that time or maybe I was not excited at all. When  I arrived in school ,I am assigned to ride on a van with Ma'm Lagman, Ecca , Jazz and Cheber. Suddenly I saw someone familiar. I stared at him. "Oh. It was Kuya. Kuya Chanot". The tour guide that is really admire by many because of his charm. xD. At that time, my excitement started. So here we go! We went to different places and had different experiences.

 FIRST STOP ! ( FORT SANTIAGO)
   I can't believe that I was able to go to one of the most historical places in our country. That day was actually my first time and I met my expectations in that place especially when I saw the "kalesa" (Haha) and Rizal's room when he was executed. The things before was still there and preserved. I am really amazed. ^^ Take a look at these pictures!
 NEXT STOP : GSIS MUSEUM 
      GSIS was big ! :') That was also the first time I went there. I was so confused on what are inside the museum then suddenly I heard that there were the paintings of our national artist and great painters of our country. When we entered the museum, I am so inspired with what I saw. The paintings were really nice. As a Filipino , we can be proud on our painters masterpieces. :) I enjoyed a lot! 
    A PICTURE WITH KUYA CHANOT BEFORE WE ENTER THE BUILDING :)
 HEY! Mall of ASIA ! Here we go!
      After going to Fort Santiago and GSIS museum, here we go MOA ! We had our lunch in Mang Inasal! Hmmm! I am really satisfied with the unlimited rice stuff! Hahaha. BURP! :) Tummy full!
Then , we walked and made some window shopping! The best part was when we buy food in Krispy Kreme! Actually it was our dessert. Yummy! That was my second time to taste their sooooo delicious doughnuts with chocolates on top! 
National Museum ! Waa. Seriously. Kinda boring. 
   It's the National Museum. It is famous and fantastic! It's really nice and surprising! But I admit ,I got bored! >.< Even though the stuff there were really amazing , aaaaa. I got bored . Maybe because I am already tired. In spite of that suffocating boredom, I still appreciate the things that I saw because it explains some historical background of our beloved country , the Philippines. 
                       Kuya Chanot again! ;) Haaayyyyiee.
         THE LAST BUT MOST MEMORABLE AND             HAPPIEST STOP! STAR CITY BABBBBYYYYY!


    We really enjoyed our stay there. The fun was so incomparable! It's our experiences who brought us the happiness and joy.  Although standing in line took away our patience still the rides worth it! I can still remeber our fun in Anchor's Away , Gabi ng Dilim and Surf Dance! Hoooo! They really made my day complete.  The best ride ever : STAR FRISBEE! 
"You spin my head right round right round if you godown down down" . I felt a little bit dizzy afterwards but I realized that the experience of riding it is really unforgettable especially when my companions were my friends. ^^
 Oops! One more thing is I'm glad to met those person who are really fun to be with. Thanks to Kuya Jay-R , Kuya Gio ,Kuya Daryl and Kuya Chanot! The BigDream E tours made it! We really enjoyed our trip. ! It was really cool! Lez Rock! :D
 

 "lIVING A FEAROF LOSING WHAT I HAVE IS  INSANE " 

    I just have to accept the fact that we're living in a universe of possibility. We might encounter the things we don't expect to happen. What if I am already destined to die? Not that I am expecting sudden death, but I'm curious. What would you say? Would it be good or bad? How would I be remembered? Would I be remembered well or half forgotten? To me death is final. Whether life was fulfilling or not, the end of life is the final chapter. 

if i died today? 

 Full of questions. Random thoughts. >.<
 If I died today , would it just be an aftershock?
Would they easily forget me?
Would somebody miss me? :(
Would everbody care?
Would anybody say "Atleast she's in a better place now"?
Who would miss me? Who will cry over me?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! 
If I died today, how would I feel about my life?
     When I was a child, I often say "Dying could never happen to me, I'm too young to die but how young is "too young to die?" :( We can never predict what will happen next. I don't have the superpowers to see the prophecy. I don't even know how many days or years I will live here on earth. Maybe because an accident, such as by plane, jeepney or other could claim my life, an unusual illness or a vital organ could fail. I have no idea. 
What would I say if my life were to end today? If I was about to say goodbye for the people I love?
Im not yet ready for my last speech , for my last hug and kiss. I can't leave them. 
Are there things I can do better? Are there people I can love better  If only I know the answer. Hmm.  Life is fragile. :/ Too ironic. 

 living is a privilage

  This is your life. Do what you love. If you don't like something , change it. If you don't like what you're doing, quit. If you're looking for the love of your life , stop. They will be waiting for you when you start doing the things you love. STOP OVER ANALYZING. All your emotions are beautiful. Life is simple. Some oppurtunities only come once , seize them. Seize the day . make it memorable! :) Life is too short. 

  Life has a funny way of making you want to live more, love more and simply be more. Don’t waste a minute of life. Make every second count.” 

 

 "Breathtaking"  

            UPCAT- University of the Philippines College Admission Test.
   
   It’s actually 11:45 pm.: right now and I’m actually bored and doing nothing . Anyway I was thinking of sharing my UPCAT experience with you guys,  it was actually crazy and funny at the same time. It might have some grammatical errors and spelling mistakes well remember it’s 11:45 p.m. and I’m about to sleep but I decided not to.   :))))  

  I  took the most excruciating exam that I ever had. (EvilLaugh!) I woke up at exactly 4:55 in the morning on that day and I played tetris on our computer to get rid of my nervousness which isn't effective by the way.  xD I decided to send messages to my friends and classmates who are also going to take the exam in the same day and asked them if they were already up and ready. It seems during that day my nervousness syndrome came over me. There were random thoughts in my mind. I have felt mixed emotions ; nervousness , excitement , etc. I walked around the house talking to myself, trying to calm down. My mom was awake that time. She wascheering me up with comforting words such as “I know you can do it” and “Answer what you know and pray.”  
    My classmates and I arrived 6:15 am at the Abadilla Hall in MSEUF where exam will be held. 
The volunteers started arranging us into line and I can help not to tap my foot it was a habit that I develop to lessen my fear but it wasn't helping.  The proctors didn’t allow friends and students from the same school to sit next to each other but we were lucky coz the proctor didn't notice me and my classmate (Leoniedeth) were still right next to each other. :D. Then , I saw someone special. He was also going to take the exam that day. I do believe :" Expect the Unexpected. "The nervousness was suddenly fading away. (Segway lang. :> ) Moving on , after the 15 minutes grace period, the examiner started reading the directions. Who knew that shading a paper can be a very hard work? We started by writing our name in the answers sheet and you have to shade the letters that corresponds to the letters of your name, including the commas that you used to separate your name.  

    Now a summary of the test:
> Language - I have to say, this was actually easy. Not really easy, but easy. It wasn’t as hard as the tests the CEER  gave us. I actually just sailed through that subtest and reviewed my answers and kept re-reading the questions that were a bit tricky and confusing. The only part that I had trouble in was the part where you had to arrange the sentences. I am not even good in logic. >Science - OMG! It was hard. Brainfreeze! >.< It was really tough since it focuses in General Science and Biology. There are only a couple of questions from Physics and Chemistry. 
>Math -  It's a disaster while I'm trying to answer it since I forgot to how to do these and how to do that, and I'm muttering about the   mathematical formulas that are roasting in hell for the hardships they had cause for the students like me. 
>Reading Comprehension - It was boring but pretty easy. :)   I enjoyed it since some of the paragraphs catch my interest. 
    It's funny how I actually left the building with a smile on my face :)) even knowing that i didn't do so well. I felt is if it has changed the way i see things.  Enlightened? Maybe not. It was probably the experience that overwhelmed me. It was great.
I loved it even with those difficult math and science questions, nosebleed filipino words and questions and those long stories.

   That was my upcat experience.! :>

PS : TO ALL FUTURE UPCAT TAKERS:
I recommend you to take this test because it would be an unforgetable experience.Be prepared for anything. Don't be afraid to step up and show what you've got ;) 

The end. -Paui.<3

 

    Is love a fairytale world of happily ever afters?

     Love. Love. Love. What is love ? A question that has bothered human for years or centuries and has yet to be truly define. Although we do not know how to define love , some of us already know what's the feeling of being in love. Remember Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty? These stories have shown us the nature of love but it seems that love has always been depicted as somewhat of a fairytale, with prince charming sweeping the princess on to his white horse where the two will live happily ever after.  Fairytales lead us into a world of beauty, where love conquers all.   

     Let's enter to the stories of REALITY .

       Love is so much more. It's not a fairytale world of happily ever after.  Love takes hard work, patience, and understanding. Love is the sweet and the bitter.  It's not all daffodils and roses; love can be painful and sad.  It's something you have to work at, and not everyone has the strength it takes to make it work and that is the reality of love. Love is the one thing that we as people all have the capacity to feel and an emotion that we long for and dream of . :)))     

    Myself being inlove

    Fallin ? :) That's my name. Fallin in love?  That's the question. Do I really fell in love or is it just an infatuation? I don’t force myself to fall, I just fall. A girl who doesn't look for high standards and a perfect one but easily fall in love with someone who really gives his effort and time. I just wanna be with someone who will change my tears into smiles. I need someone who will never give up on me and will never get tired loving me. I also want someone who is willing to lower his pride for me. I can't help who I  fall in love with, all I hope for is that my feelings get returned. Falling in love for me is easy , falling out of it  is the hardest; meaning to recover from that love once lost is emotionally taxing. For now , I still remember the time when someone knelt to the ground and asked me if I can be his girl in front of his classmates and it happened on Valentine's Day. Trials came along in our way , I want to fix it before everything goes wrong but  I don't know what TO DO  NEXT.  I have no IDEA.! :(

SOMEDAY

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Someday I'll have my own PERFECT LOVE STORY. 
Someday I'll find my prince charming.
Someday I'll be love.
Someday everbody will see me smiling again.
Someday hatred will turn into love
Someday I'll have my happy ending.
Someday I'll find my destiny. 

Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of US.
Someday we'll know why I was meant for you.  


                             This ! 

-The end-
Paui. :>
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     Lets define homework. Homework refers to  to tasks assigned to students by their teachers to be completed outside class. It may include a quantity or period of reading , writing, problems to be solved, a school project or other skills need to be practiced. Do you think homework is a need in knowing that students  really learn? Do you think homework is necessary? Well in my opinion , NO. Hear me out because I have several reasons that might just change your mind.        
   Students are spending a lot of time on homework. And, according to some, it's way too much. It  can  result in an overabundance of schoolwork outside of school. I have thousands of assignments every week (O.verA.cting) ,most of them homework assignments. As a result, I’m cascaded with homework every day, causing me to stay up until 12 o’clock at night . Oh! This is really a threat to my health. :( The fact  that  I'm not normal,  Im wasted. That's a Sh*t. :/. It could stunt my growth, and result in fatigue and stress because everyone knows that no good sleep leads to no good grades. We all know that stress can cause many things including lack of sleep, slipping grades, fatigue, unhealthy eating habits and  depression. A teenager like me  should not have to face depression at such a young age. I should have Fun! :/ Some students refuse to do homework and it’s lowering their grades. But I can’t blame them because I ask myself on a daily basis why I don’t just quit already and join the rest of the crowd. I therefore conclude that... Hahaha.  I could do fun things instead of homework because it keeps me cooped up inside like a prisoner in a jail and I absolutely hate it! To sum up. Here are my 10 crazy reasons I didn't do my homework.
You can judge me if you want ! :) Whatevaaaahh! 
1. Im simply Lazy 
-Writing an essay , solving math problems, constructing oblique , isometic drawing and etc. Hellll. o.o ------------- Too much work can cause laziness.   
2. I have no time for that ridiculous thing. 
-Yea.  Homework is a ridiculous thing, though it is a serious matter to those students who are really serious but for a easy go lucky like me, its kinda silly. :D
3. I easily get bored 
-Bored especially when your assignments were really hard,all you can do is to stare to it and wait for the time until you finally know the answers.But it will take A LONG time. (especially when you're given many mathemical problems)
4. I didn't like doing troublesome things.
-Why so troublesome? :) Because for me, its really upsetting.  Its a burden. Instead of taking a rest earlier at home, youstill have to manageyour assignments. :/
5. What's the purpose of your classmates. they are always there to help you. :D Trololol.
- It's not cheating. Nowadays , we called it teamwork. It's a part of a student's life. There is nothing wrong in asking help for your assignments. We just have to limit it.
6. Im busy doing my other stuff. xD
- Reading , watching, chatting. Those stuff are destructions but I prefer doing it. 
7. I don't want stress.
- Sleeping late at night because of homework is a stress. It is not only a stress. We may also consider it as a depression. :)
8. I prefer to sleep and watch movies. 
-Do you enjoy working or answering homework? Kinda. :) But watching movies and sleeping makes you feel more relax. 
9. I don't know the crazy answers .
- Brainfreeze! nothing to answer. nothing to write.!
10. Im too BEAUTIFUL  for that. 
(Warning: Insanity is present here! ) Woo.

- This is the craziest reason. Sorry for being mean. :D What a reason right?
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